hearts unforgiven

by powerangers_08@yahoo.com

"i'm sorry.." you said, biting your lips. the other's obvious shock, startled expression so clear in your vision, so achingly painful to look at. it's like clouds are hovering in front of that face, making it so dark, so... unlike him, you think, already missing the mismatch eyes and you know you wont see them soon, not where you are concerned anyway.

"i understand," he said, but you want to scream no, you dont! because you dont understand yourself at all; why the rejection flows from your mouth. it feels like a thousand knives are piercing your body, your heart. your eyes feel like there are sands in them and you blink once, avoiding that handsome face, "i'll... see you around then, hyung," and he just walk away, and all you want to do is yank that arms back and envelope them with your own. but you know you couldn't. you couldn't when you are the leader like this, when they're in the midst of their suspension like this, when the management's at their tails like this and most of all, when they in a society like this.

they wouldn't understand, Min-ah.




"i'm sorry," he said, with eyes so sincere you feel your heart crushed into a million pieces, literally. like a fragile glass structure you saw in one of the antique store being thrown to the wall. crushed. you saw the expression on his face flicker and you tried to control your own expression. tears, please dont fall, not now you murmur to yourself, to your self control. when in truth, you want to do nothing except that. so you just say:

"i understand," although truthfully, you dont because seeing how they have always been together and happy for the last 10 months or so, your desired ending should be expected, but no. the reason why you sticks to him and defy the other three, it's that ending that plays an important part in your stance. the constant touches and whispers and accidental kisses mean nothing to him then. a mere wishful thinking, it seems now, "i'll see you around then, hyung," and you walk away. fast. in your peripheral vision you notice him half-reaching out towards you, his expression screams guilt all over it and you dont want guilt, you want something else entirely. so you run, run, run, leaving it all behind. including your heart.

goodbye, Yunho-ah.