She grumbles in her wake. She dont understand why the internet’s decided to hold a rampange against her NOW of all times. This is such a critical moment!! She has just found an AMAZING author of DBSK fan fiction over the net and is just done reading ONE of her fan fiction when she still have about 100 or so more.. and the link to chapter two is STILL directed to offline notification page. GAH! And the YOUTUBE!! She’s just been waiting for the video of DBSK’s Bonjour Paris photobook finished embedding (her internet’s THAT slow, believe me) and now... AND NOW!!! My GOD! Why now??
WHY NOW? Grrr
But thinking things rationally, she thinks this doesn’t make sense. Maybe it’s just tonight that the line’s not working. She’s been on to search for these things since 9 in the morning after all and it’s already.. ah, 1.40 in the morning.. so she carefully mem’ing the sites that are already opened, and decides to take things slow.. closing the broadband for a whole (it’s HOT).. and watches the Bonjour Paris part 1, 7 and 3 (bless the uploaders) that’s already finished buffering..
These are her spazzes:
[PART 1]
Jaejoong attemping the mission is hella adorable!
[PART 3]
Changmin: because im.. important.. *walks away*
me: *cracks up*
I LOVE YOU, MINNIE, I REALLY DO =,D
[PART 7]
When the cameraman called Yoocun, "Micky..!" and he answered "Yea?" my heart just skipped a beat.. i dunno why.. O__o lol
Then she decides to try onlining again. Hopefully, the broadband’s cool enough to be functioning properly. It’s WAY past curfew, but damn it, who cares.
Oh... the line’s BACK!!
Oh, oh! The Bonjour Paris!!
Oh.. but the fanfictions!! Yes!!
Then it settles in her. Why not Bonjour Paris first? By all means, THAT is the first thing she should be excited about; watching them together. Videos of them laughing, singing, TOGETHER. But why does she diverts to fan fiction first than watching those videos? The videos are LIVE. The fan fictions are MADE. But why fanfiction?
Then it occurs to her. She’s been trying to live in the safe haven that is the fan fictions. They seems so happy in there, so REAL and REALISTIC and so much like what her imagination has been trying to picture for her in this 10 months of HELL.
Its bittersweet, watching those videos and she doesnt want the “bitter” along with her “sweet”. She doesn’t want videos when it reminds her so much of things that could-have-been. The fanfictions are written with hopes and visions of what the boys might be going through. Like how Yunho would try contacting Jaejoong even when the management’s on his and Changmin’s tails, how Junsu would whine to Changmin through his email by saying how he misses the other’s teases, how Yunho would somehow find a way to Yoochun’s and clears of his doubts.. and these are the things that she want. She HOPES.
But seeing things as they are now.. what’s with the 5 of them doing their solo activities.. her heart clenches. It’s their right, she knows. It’s not as easy as it seems, she KNOWS. But..
JaeChun’s message:
Always Keep the Faith.
JaeChun’s tattoo:
Hope to the End.
She closes her windows, and logs off the computer.
