Sunday, June 20, 2010

Cassiopeia's faith

by powerangers_08@yahoo.com


there's this one star constellation named Cassiopeia. now, to others, it might not bear any significant meaning (except, perhaps to those who study greek mythology and astrology), but to 3 - 5 million or so fans out there (no kidding), it bears the meaning of pride, talents, greatness, togetherness, faith, brotherhood and sisterhood alike, and a strong bond. its a safe haven to these people and the embrace to return to to the 5 men; whose existence is the core to all of this: to the 4 millions or so people out there, to this faith, this togetherness, this BOND to harvest firsthand.

now whats the reason for me to ramble these? *chuckles* well, its because i FREAKING SAW THE CASSIOPEIA THE OTHER DAY!! lol..



it's too bad i didnt bring a camera with me.. T___T the night was awesome. i was having this camping thing. and we were in the middle of our activity (night-walking, obviously) and i got distracted by the hundreds millions of stars on the sky. oh my GOD.. there were so many of them. while i was amazed at them, my eyes caught this one star constellation near the horizon, and tadaa!! CASSIOPEIA!! XDDDDD the first time i saw it, i couldnt stop smiling! i cant believe i could finally see it! it was huge! and surprisingly, easily recognized. i cant believe i didnt see it before that day! so naturally, i was mesmerized.

our night activity continued until about 5.30 in the morning, and when it was nearing 5, i saw 2 shooting stars! my GOD! it's been, what? 5 years since i last saw one? XDDDD and people often associating a shooting star to a desired wish and i thought; GOD, please take care of my family (the first shooting star) and GOD, please let "them" be together again (the second shooting star). it really was a spur-of-the-moment thing. the wish came out without me really thinking about it.. lol..

and while im at it, im gonna say here, im not gonna stop keeping the faith. although the chance of them going back together is as thin as a veil now; what with the 3 of them signing a new contract with an american producer and the other 2 keeping their silences (there's more than this, but im not gonna elaborate) i dunno. despite everything (and anything, really) i'll keep my faith. even if im last one keeping it, still, im gonna keep it, as irrational as it may seems. i just cannot see the 3 without the shadow of the other two on their right side. its where they belong. the JYJ concert in DOME recently is the prove. they're so successful (a staggering 46000 audiences!) but the stage seems too big.. the harmonizations seems messed up (though some people might argue this with me. this is how i hear it, so no offense intented) the PERFORMANCES SEEM INCOMPLETE AND THEY SEEM MISERABLE. enough said. i'll support them, i really will. i'll watch Changmin's drama, i'll see Yunho's musical, and i'll anticipate what Jaejoong, Yoochun and Junsu will come up with, but its with the bittersweet feeling inside of me whilst me thinking, "I want them 5. not like this,"



i'll always keep the faith..

Monday, June 7, 2010

Hurt Me Like Red Ocean

farah_prong@yahoo.com.my

Hi…

Wow. It has been a long time since I updated this blog. Sorry A’an. I know that you have many things to say and write. I am so sorry for not doing my part.

I want to talk about my favourite group, DBSK/TVXQ. I know that there are some that will simply close this blog because of our obsession but I do not mind.

Well, many Cassie are aware of JYJ Thanksgiving Live in Dome last few days. Well, to be honest, I cannot watch the performance just yet. Not yet because it pained me to see that concert. I know and I am happy for them to be having the concert and please the awaiting fans and I am really happy that the concert went well. However, I do not know why, but it kinda broke my heart to see even the title of the concert. I know, I am being extreme but I just can’t. Maybe for me it means that they are moving on. It is not that moving on is bad, but maybe for me it is not the time yet. I just can’t watch the three of them because I felt that the stage is too big just for three people to be on. Well, I am being pessimist. I know, I should be happy for them and I am. But I can’t just watch the concert. Not yet. Well, I know that if I didn’t watch it now, YT will probably remove all videos by the time that I am ready to watch it but I do not mind because it still hurts to see them apart.

I know that other Cassie are happy for the three and believe me when I say that I too, feel happy or them. Gosh, it hurts to see them being apart. That’s all. And maybe I am really sad because the last time we saw them together and happy was on that stage and it was not even a long time ago, it was just at the end of last year. So, to see just the three on the very same stage that they all dreamt to be on once upon a time is just unbearable for me. I can’t see it. It brings memories and fresh wound. Well, if I am sad, what about them? What do they feel to be back on the stage; the last performance as happy family before all the turmoil begins?

Well, I am AKTF here and I do hope that miracles do happen. But for the time being, seeing them on that stage hurts me a lot.

Okay, see you when we’ll see you.