Good for you A'an...hehe...he is worth to drool and lose blood for.
Well, today, I have a 'courage' to write a fan-fiction and after seeing and reading about the news of PC (press-conference) between HoMin and Samsung with James Cameron.
Missing You
As I peered from the curtain at the backstage, I can see that you looked so radiant and my heart aches. There is some sort of hole in them now that you are gone. I can't talk to you the way I used to and seeing you with him makes it even harder for me. I guess jealousy is really a bitch. It eats you alive and burns you with agony. I know that we all treated him like a baby because he is our maknae but still, I do not like to see you laughing and touching him. It pains me to see you so happy. I guess that you can say that I am a bad person for wanting to see you suffer just I am now. I am bad aren't I?
You can't see my pain cause I can hide it very well. True man never cry right? Yes. I said that and I know that better. I am a good actor aren't I? I can hide it very well right? I guess that the crying can come when I act. I am glad to see that I need to cry in some of the scenes in my drama cause that is the only time I can cry publicly. You do not know that I too cry right? You never see me cry in the open like this. I want to scream, I want to cry out loud so that you know that I am suffering too. We all are.
You seemed so happy now. Your skin glows with it. Your smile; that beautiful smile with that white teeth of yours should be mine to see and have now. I guess that we need to take different and difficult path. Yunho...I miss you. I know that we will be together soon but when is soon? I am tired of waiting. You called me and asked if I could just give up and reconcile with the company but I can't. We have come to far to stop now without making it difficult for everyone. Yes, I am selfish for thinking that but why can't you join me? I always wonder that and I always wonder whether my decision to do this is ever correct. But we have taken the path. WE know what will happen and we will accept it. I miss you a lot though.
Suddenly my eyes clouded and my cheeks feel hot. Something is streaming down my face. I looked at my hand. Pearly white water is coming down...I guess that my heart is too overflowing with them so they need to come out one of these days.
'Jaejoong-ah,' pat someone from my back.
'We need to go. I think our fans spotted us,' said Yoochun.
'Yeah, we should go. Here,' Junsu handed me a Rayban so that the red-brimmed eyes can be covered up.
I take a last look at your face when you gave your speech and smile. We will be together soon and we will come through the rain. The sun will shine soon.
I know...that might not be good enough but it has been a while since I last write a ficcy. Do forgive me for that.
Okay...
See you when I'll see you.
Take care
As I peered from the curtain at the backstage, I can see that you looked so radiant and my heart aches. There is some sort of hole in them now that you are gone. I can't talk to you the way I used to and seeing you with him makes it even harder for me. I guess jealousy is really a bitch. It eats you alive and burns you with agony. I know that we all treated him like a baby because he is our maknae but still, I do not like to see you laughing and touching him. It pains me to see you so happy. I guess that you can say that I am a bad person for wanting to see you suffer just I am now. I am bad aren't I?
You can't see my pain cause I can hide it very well. True man never cry right? Yes. I said that and I know that better. I am a good actor aren't I? I can hide it very well right? I guess that the crying can come when I act. I am glad to see that I need to cry in some of the scenes in my drama cause that is the only time I can cry publicly. You do not know that I too cry right? You never see me cry in the open like this. I want to scream, I want to cry out loud so that you know that I am suffering too. We all are.
You seemed so happy now. Your skin glows with it. Your smile; that beautiful smile with that white teeth of yours should be mine to see and have now. I guess that we need to take different and difficult path. Yunho...I miss you. I know that we will be together soon but when is soon? I am tired of waiting. You called me and asked if I could just give up and reconcile with the company but I can't. We have come to far to stop now without making it difficult for everyone. Yes, I am selfish for thinking that but why can't you join me? I always wonder that and I always wonder whether my decision to do this is ever correct. But we have taken the path. WE know what will happen and we will accept it. I miss you a lot though.
Suddenly my eyes clouded and my cheeks feel hot. Something is streaming down my face. I looked at my hand. Pearly white water is coming down...I guess that my heart is too overflowing with them so they need to come out one of these days.
'Jaejoong-ah,' pat someone from my back.
'We need to go. I think our fans spotted us,' said Yoochun.
'Yeah, we should go. Here,' Junsu handed me a Rayban so that the red-brimmed eyes can be covered up.
I take a last look at your face when you gave your speech and smile. We will be together soon and we will come through the rain. The sun will shine soon.
I know...that might not be good enough but it has been a while since I last write a ficcy. Do forgive me for that.
Okay...
See you when I'll see you.
Take care
