lazy bum that I am

by powerangers_08@yahoo.com

Heyya, folks.. Due to serious case of laziness, so I haven't been updating anything for approximately 2 weeks? (give and take a day or two) and blame my consciousness for being the sluggish that I currently am. Course works have demanded more out of me than I possibly can and I am seriously clutching to my very edge of mental indifference . I hope I can cope, seriously. By hook or by crook, I have to survive this. It's only my first semester, for God's sake and already I am dreading my everyday life here. It's irritating (me of myself) sometimes..

Ah, this time around, I have 2 poems to post. I made this a along time ago. Actually my inspiration usually comes from moments and feelings that I have experienced myself, and it's normally based on how I view that certain moment that I wrote my many poems and creative writing texts. (I wonder why am I being so formal this time.. aish..)

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Friends Anguish

betrayal
the sensation seeps through you
provoking rage
recalling memories
visions are red
thus tremble your deeds
what wrongs have you done?
the more you push through
the more are you disregard

sorrow
distressing your very being
aggravating sanity
plummeting confidence
sinks in thrust
blurs the eye
acceptance seems impossible
the more you push through
the more are you disregard

hopeless
heartens your way out
looking elsewhere
thrusting strangers
clenches loneliness
howl sobs
you flee
no more of you pushing through
no more of them disregarding you

[this poem is inspired by many things that happened in my life this of late. You know how life sometimes sucks because of the elements it evolves around.. etc..]

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Resonance of DBSK

I hear you
and feels of requited love
soothes like angel's tenor
calming til sleep lull
intoxicating like sirens' would
transferring dreams to seventh heaven
your voices are beautiful
intertwined, creating lullaby
together and captivating eyes
with just the presence of five
persuading all drunken
thirst for more
binding them in nexus
exodus them from reality
flown them to fantasy
in the sweet tenor of your voices

sing on
drown me in
your red ocean of vast
it's where I belong

[you know you know from where I got my inspiration to write this poem. huhu.. truthfully this is how I feel, listening to them]

Well, then. I'll be writing more in the near future. Life's just too twisted to let it go just like that (if you get what I mean.. =) That's that, folks! xD

Not Your Favourite Girl

by farah_prong@yahoo.com.my

Hiyaaa...

Long time no see...I didn't have any idea on what 2 write...

So I'm reverting back to my old self to write poem...

Not Your Favourite Girl

Your preferences
differs from mine
You ask for a lot
and I am just able to give a little

High above the ground
you lifted me up
soaring me high

but
as high as you tried to lift me
your face is still at distance
your words and actions are mere illusions

I might not be your favourite girl
with long flowing hair
slim tall figure
beautiful and sexy face

I am just me
A person that is lacking

but you too forgets
that you are not perfect yourself

Seeing you with naked eyes
people see perfection beyond compare
but deep inside
you are an empty shell
that crave nothing but yourself

that's all folks

see you when we'll see you

Acid in My Brain

by powerangers_08yahoo.com

Hell-o~
(-_-iii)

Ah~
Me and Farah had co-curriculum class diz morning. Persatuan Bulan Sabit Merah to be exact. I still can't quite believe that I join this club. It's my last resort, to be honest and mainly because the 'other' club was just to stupid and such a-shit to accept me.

Oh, well..

It's bad, how I started my day today. I woke up so very late, approximately 45 minutes after the intended time (I think it's partly because I cried a bucket watching 'A Millionnaire's First Love' last night. It's so sad!!). So I confess I didn't take my bath before going to the meeting *grins toothily* But hey! I did brush my teeth and washed my face, all right!

And there was another shitty thing happened at the PBSM meeting this morning as well. For this week, we learnt the CPR procedure. You know how some people would have troubles with doing the practical part so they record it instead. Now, Farah already had her recorded part, but it was still not that clear since she didn't recorded it up close. Then there was this chinese guy in their VAD who did. So, she decided to asked him if he could bluetooth it to her. You know how when we're studying, we share any informations that we have with our friends, right? Doesn't matter if that friend if someone we hardly know but still, this is knowledge we're talking about. So if it's me, honestly, I don't mind sharing. Really.

Back to this chinese guy and Farah. So she asked him if he would bluetooth the video to her. And you know what he replied? (this part happened right in front of my eyes, you see)

"No, I'll not give it to you,"

and the next sentence:

"No, I'm not willing,"

and I can still remember his face when he said this with complete clarity. How dare he, saying those right in front of someone's face? Have he no consideration? Okay, okay. You don't want to give it to people. Fine. But can't you please speak politely, please? Say things like, 'Oh, my bluetooth's no working, maa. Sorry' or something. Is it so hard in saying 'I'm sorry'? I feel like slapping him, I really am. Such attitude. Maybe he can just shrunk in hell where he belonngs.

I don't get what's the problem. 1 Malaysia, huh? ('__')

Hm~
I meant to post a poem this time round, actually. But blurting this out seems more of a priority at the moment. Huhu..

Well, that's that for now, folks!
xD

Attention!

by farah_prong@yahoo.com.my

Hiyaaa...

I'm having headache right now. Let me start rambling about my current situation. It is funny what fasting can do to you. I mean, not fasting in general, it is more like what hunger can do to you. I think I am more sensitive when I am hungry and I tend to get emotional in this kind of situation.

You see, when you have seven siblings, it is hard to get the same unconditional and undivided love from your parents. Although of course, parents will never say that they are being unfair. They will say that all of their children get the same attention and love, there will be no bias or favouritism but all in all, I think it is a lie. Even we ourselves tend to get choosy and we will favour one person more than the other. You know that you are being unfair but you can't help it. It just happens.

Anyway, in a big family situation where everyone is fighting for more attention and love, it is difficult to get notice sometimes. You will feel like you are left-out and sometimes you could even come to the conclusion that maybe you are not really your mum and dad's flesh. You might be adopted and somewhere in your mind, you think that your real family is out there looking for you. I know I did think like that when I was small. I was so convinced about it since I am the darkest one in the family with straight hair and boyish features. I do not think that I fit in my family because they are all fair and have curly-ish hair.

Well, (okay...I am getting there) today I felt a pang of sadness. I think this is a childish behaviour and I will be okay afterwards but now, I am sad. When I am sad, my brain will start to hurt a lot and this led to me being tension. My mum was joking. I know she did (I hope...) when I told her that I still haven't buy my baju raya and guess what she said?

'Padan muka.'

How on earth can you say that?

Wow.

Looking at that phrase makes me wanna cry...

Okay...

Signing out for now.

See you when we'll see you.

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