First Love, First Crush

by farah_prong@yahoo.com.my

Sorry...I know. Tonight is a crazy night. I have posted 3 posts continuously. Well, that 1 post is uncountable cause it is only announcement. Nothing else. I hope that A'an is okay with this. It is just that I have to post that announcement. You know how it is right?

Okay. This topic is inspired by Ain. Thank you.

I am sure that most of you still remember your or first . In my case, there is no first love. I haven't fallen yet. So, anyone wants to give me that experience? ekekeke....just joking.

Okay...

My first crush. Okay, This is wrong. I think it goes the other way around. This is someone's crush on me.

I still remember this young Chinese guy that had a crush on me once when I am still young and naive or stupid at that time. I was in Form 1. He is in Form 2. He is my sister's friend. He is tall and very sepet (what do you call that in English eyh?). He seemed like a typical Chinese guy. I was scared because it is my first day at school, thus I tagged my sister along. She, of course, will go and sit with her clicks. At that time, she be-friended a lot of Chinese friends and he was one of her friends as well. My sister introduced me to her friends and I sat with them until the bell rang. I noticed this tall and lanky guy kept on staring at me but I refused to look at him. After all, I am still nervous about my first day.

When we went home, my sister told me that the guy is interested in me. You imagined my surprised at that time. I am still nervous about school, work, friends and all and here comes a confession that knocks you out of your shoes. It is horrendous.

Second day at school, he came to me and said;

'Your cheeks are like apple. When you smile, you looked sweet. I felt like pinching your cheeks,'
and grinned at me.

In my head I said;

'You sicko! Get away from me!'

I mean, come on...I am scared! I thought only perveted people said something like that. Plus, I am a very reserved person, I still am. I don't trust people that easily. Plus, he is somewhat weird. Then, starting on that day, the hunt begins.

He found out from my sister what is my likes and dislikes and quickly adapted to it. First, he know how much I love chocolates. Thus, I always find a bar of chocolate ranging from Cadbury to Kit-Kat under my table every time the bell rang. I do not know how he beats me to school considering the facts that I always go to school an hour earlier. (FYI: I am in the evening session).

Then, all the (love letters) started to make its appearance. He knows my passion in English, thus, he tried to write in English. He actually struggled to do it. It was sweet. But, there is one thing that puts me off. His handwriting...

Urgh...

It is horrible. I mean, the handwriting is really the worst. However, thanks to him, I am able to read even the worst handwriting and can decipher it clearly up until today. He also discover a new hobby of mine which is, collecting envelopes. He have this beautiful envelopes that I really liked and I accidentally wrote to him about it. Yes people. I do writes back to him. It is rude not to do so. Thus, I kept replying to him and he keeps on sending this beautiful envelopes to me. It goes back and forth for a year.


This guy is sooo tall. I mean, you can see him from far away. Thus, as he always corners me around, however, that height of his is also one of the features that can make me have a heads start. I can disappear when he comes around as I can see the top of his head miles away and I can;

PUFF
(dissappears)

He also didn't fail to tell every Chinese in school to stay away from me. I mean, everyone knows that he LOVE ME! It was embarrasing. Everyone, starting from Form 1 until Form 6's Chinese called me 'Yong Seng laupo' (it means Yong Seng's wife) . They smiled and teased as I walked. It is embarrasing for me, happiness for him. He also have an affect on me. I went senile around me. I mean, one day, he called me and said that he is right there in front of my house and he wanted to come in. And I, like a fool allowed him, only to realized that there is nobody in the house! Panicking, I called and begged my friend to come over. My friend frantically drove her bike from her house straight to mine in ten minutes! She was panting, breathless, with face as white as a paper and practically could die from exaustion as she stepped into my house! Remembering it back is sure funny.

That Chinese guy looked so plain in school uniform but when he wears jeans one day during the school's trip to Penang, my heart was beating so fast, I thought it might pop out. He looked like a prince charming to me at that moment. All of his friends 'perkena' me so I have to sit beside him. He sat so close, I could smell his perfume and our knees touches each other.

It is the same as this picture. Only switch the gender. And yes, he does fall asleep on my shoulder when the day ended (as we are riding back hime).

I could still remember his outfit that day. He wore blue faded jeans with a white turtleneck that looked soooo good on him. However, on that day, before the heart-beating-so-fast thing, I rejected him for the third time that year. Only after I rejected him, that night, when I remembered him, the beating starts. I was about to eat my words back when I went to school the next day only to realize the love in his eyes were no longer there. All that is there in his eyes were sadness and he kept avoiding me all day. Then only when a friend of his came and tell me what had happened. It seemed that I am the first Malay girl that he ever had any crush on and I am the one that he couldn't get. He was wounded and he can't look at me anymore.

That is the end of our relationship. He still avoided all the time at school until he graduated and then I lost contact with him. But last year he messaged me back in Friendster. However, he already have a girlfriend and by the look of it, they are going strong and steady.

So that is my story. How about yours? Care to share? Leave a post or write your experience now.

So that's it folks...

See you when we'll see you.