Nightmares!!

by farah_prong@yahoo.com.my

I am sorry for my last post. I am in a rocky-unstable-mental-state-of-mind right now. I am not quite certain why, but I feel a bit insane. Maybe all the assignments are really kicking in right now. Or perhaps it is due to too many rest and doing nothing at home. I don't really know. However, my instability makes my writing a bit too-complex for anyone's comfort. So sorry about that. But, it is okay. I am not crazy okay? I am perhaps a bit unstable now...huhu...

Okay. Talk8ing about nightmares. I have been having this reall7y scary nightmares after the last post of 'Help! I am trapped!'. You know that in that post I mentioned that I felt torn in mad desire to go to sleep and stay awake like a zombie? Well, I think I am a zombie now. Almost a zombie. This nightmares are really getting to me now. On the first day, I managed to wake up from it but now, my eyes just won't open although I have tried really hard to wake myself up. In my life, I feared many things and GHOST is one if it. In Ghost category, I am really scared of poc*** and ghost-like-child.

In my nightmares, there is a ghost-like-child that keeps on following me everywhere I goes. He basically clings to me; didn't want to let go. I never see his face and hoping that I won't. It usually involves in places around my house and that child will just hold the hem of my shirt and when I walked, I know that I am dragging him along. It feels heavy and I usually snapped out from the nightmares when he came forward to confront me. Every time I wake up from this nightmares, I will get goosebumps and the hair at the back of my neck will stand up because I always felt as if someone is standing behind me. As a result, starting from 2 days ago, I will sleep at my sister's room instead of sleeping alone in my room.

I hope that nightmares will just stop. I don't want to see him.

Rendezvous

by powerangers_08@yahoo.com

As of now, I am completely, utterly, and disbelievingly in shock and startle to the point of numb and deaden-ly frozen. Why? Oh… damn...

Liverpool LOST.

In the Champion League.

To Chelsea…

3-1

Waa…!!

Sob… sob…

I guess the saying that we live in a circle is true… Sometimes we’re up. And sometimes we’re down..

Hm… Did you know that ‘sob’ is also a shortened saying of ‘son of a bitch’? Yeah, exclude the ‘a’.

Hee… *grimaces*

I’m mourning now. Please excuse my rude comment…

BUT!

On the bright side, I just came back to a trip to KL! With my roomies of last semester; Ajue, Shu, Maklang, and Tinie.

It was SO f**king fun!

And tired as well. Huhu!

Where to start, eh? Hm… First we went to Times Square as the monorail dropped us there, then to Pavilion to eat, then to Red Box to karaoke til my voice hoarse, then eat again at KFC but I don’t remember the name of the place, then to Jalan Tunku Abdul Rahman to shop til I drop (nearly), then to SOGO since Tinie needed to find herself a jeans, then to KLCC to eat and to shop til I drop as well!! (books, this time. At Kinokuniya. Duh).

I know have a complete book set of the Black Dagger Brotherhood series. Yay!

All this were done in a course of two days, by the way. It doesn’t sound much, I know. But if you do it with the right company, then it’s a total mayhem. And damn enjoyable, of course.

Ah…

When can we do it again, guys? *winks*

Lol…

Guess who we bump into at Pavilion? Nad and Sue. A total shock, if you ask me.

It IS a small world, isn’t it?

*smirks*

KL offers a HELLACIOUS lot of entertaining, isn’t it? But I never see myself settle there long time. Never. The crowd… The vehicles… The traffic jams... I can’t stand it. When I stood on a bench of one of the main road on the way to Pavvy, I saw, sort of like, my time has frozen, and everybody else’s times are rushing forward. Or maybe it was me being all snail-like. Ekeke… But, Negeri Sembilan, Kuantan for instance, I can manage. But KL? Man, not in a million years. Some people would probably call it lively. But it’s like swarming bees for me. Everybody is buzzing and they didn’t stop.

But it IS our mother nation. So I guess it’s fair enough. Huhu!

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…

…

Phew!

I just got back from the shop. Little bro wants a mechanical pencil. I swear kids these days are WAY demanding than they supposed to be. I used a mere wood pencil when I was his age, you know… *shakes head*

Anyway, back to the shop. When waiting in the car for my brother, I noticed these two kids coming out of the shop my bro just got in. I thought they’re siblings. The sister was about 13 to 14 years old and the brother just 4 or 5 years old. What captivates me was the way the brother looked at his sister. She was tall and the boy had to look way upward to meet his sister’s face and that didn’t seem to bother him. Then he did this dodging-bullets-like-one-of-the-characters-in-Wolverine-movie kind of thing, as if to impress his sister. It’s cute and even though she didn’t even seem interested, he continuously telling the sister his story, all the while trying to catch his sister’s attention. His look was kind of like full of adoration, really.

It really was cute...

All rightie!

I wanna go watch Heroes at StarWorld now.

That’s it, then!

xD

Help! I am trapped!

by farah_prong@yahoo.com.my

Phew...4 the past few days I was so caught up in my laziness till I felt so trapped inside. I am torn in a mad desire 2 go 2 sleep like a coma patient and not sleeping like a total zombie. I think that I am losing my marbles now. It is crazy in my head. A total chaos. Hell broke loose. I dont know what I want. I cant think but at the same time, I am thinking bout things that I am not thinking about and that makes my head hurt...okay. Now I am incoherently rambling about stuff that I dont understand. Ritey. My piece of mind...Hurm...


Catacomb

The darkness is compressing
Sealing me tight
The worriness is depressing
Killing me inside

I am trapped
In the catacomb of my mind
Lost in my head
Headache is not that kind

The air is gone
The sickening aura is back
The tension is looming
My inside has finally cracked

Sleep comes to claim me
But my eyes wont oblige
The catacomb is closing
Swiftly in a glide


Wow...tonight is bizarre...it is weird.sorry folks. Even I dont undrstand me.

Okay then.
See you when we'll see you.

Cook, Cry, Cruise

by powerangers_08@yahoo.com


Ahoy, there! Long time no see! Or online more like. Huhu..

All rightie...
Practical session has already ended. And eventhough I didn't like the place (people there are great, honestly. But there was just some unsettling feeling whenever I work there...) I still kinda wish I am working again. Staying home is good. But not so much when you find yourself nothing else to do... Oohh, damn... Let's see what I've done so far...

Cooking...

Some housework doing...

Washing clothes...

Send brother to school...

Lipat baju...

Cooking again...


I'm well aware that I don't have a life, thank you.


And doing these works nowadays is a total hell. Why? Because it's freaking HOT out there!

Impossibly hot.

I think I finally got a glimpse of Sahara dessert, you know. Save the airplane ticket, at least. And not to mention, doing housework is totally not my thing. I'm a girl, I know. And eventually, I will have to face the reality of it all. But that's just it. Eventually, right? Sooner, the call will come unto me. Now, on the other hand, so not fucking yet. Hehehe...



Hm...
Yesterday, I watched the Katty Perry's 'Thinking of You' music video. Guess what happened?

Yeah.
I cried.
Sobbing, more like.

It WAS sad, you know! Especially during these lines:

I wish that I
Was looking into your...
Your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Oh, wont you walk through
And bust in the door and
Take me away
Oh, no more mistake
Cause in your eyes
I'd like to stay...

My chest felt like it was going to get ripped apart, it really was. So, so sad... Hollow... Empty... Whatever heartbroken words there are that could be applied...



Oh, yeah!
I just got news about Twilight saga latest installment, New Moon regarding their actors.

Of course, they get to keep the older actors. In this second movie, though, there are additions.

Dacota Fanning.

I choked in my drinks when I first heard the news! Dacota Fanning? Wow! Can't wait to see who'll she act on!

I bet it's Jane of the Volturi.

Triple wow...



Okie dokie...
I am rambling and FYI, this is actually to distract myself from the over burden of assignments which have befallen unto me... Well, 1 assignment only actually... but still... And the distraction is a success, apparently. I am now too sleepy to write another sentence so I'd better settle my head on those fluffy pillows, shall I?



That's that, then, folks!
xD