%$&*@#!

by powerangers_08@yahoo.com

Oh, God..

It's in the middle of vertigo here... Nobody has been coming lately and it's all because of my disgusting idle habit...

Dear my idle self...
Go away, please!! Shoo!
(+_+)

USM
USM
USM...
oo..USM..

Of nearly 2 weeks being here.. The pace that I have to keep up.. I seriously hope I have the strength to carry on. This is only 2 weeks! Not yet 2 semesters, or even 2 years. All the lectures and classes that I've been in, they all spoke of the same basis:

APEX

Bullshit, you know..
Ugh..

No, No! I didn't mean me being here is bullshit. It's just that.. just quit talking of the same thing. We're humans too, you know.. Don't expect too much of us. This semester is better, yes, but there are possibilities that we're gonna stumble now and then.

This is getting tiring..

Home's so far away... I could still smell the lingering scent of my house's evergreen lawn.. My bed.. I have expected of all this. I know what I put myself into when I sent myself here, but still it comes as a shock.

• The size. It's humungous. (also not an element that I should be surprised on. College is not that big, anyway. Thank God there're buses).
• The intake. (It's 3000++ in total. How many was the intake in the college, again? 200?)
• The room. (My first impression was, "Oh, my... Can i really live in here? It's so gloomy. That was 2 weeks ago and in the two weeks after, my answer is, "Yes, I can" =)
• APEX (Not this again..)
• The food. (So cheap! I remembered buying nasi, ikan keli masak sambal. Total? RM2.30. (O_o)
• The students, me excluded. (Like I said in the earlier post, they all seems capable of anything. And I do mean ANYTHING. They all speaks English at ALL times and it even seems like an anomaly to speak the language we usually use).
• The system. (Complicated as hell. College's system is much more easier. To register for the subjects only, I have to renew my slip for 3 times in a row. Then the confusion of whether or not should I take minor this semester. I've sought advice from 3 different person and they all said of 3 different things. Useless. So then I act with a lot of 'Meh!' on the minor thingy and decides to take it next semester).

And for being here in just 2 weeks, I already have a disturbing problem.

I need to stay in the hostel throughout my 3 years in USM!

And why is that a problem? You have to gain these Unit Desa in order to stay in. And I HAVE to stay in, but I am not that active in anything!

Fine, I don't have a life. So what.

So then I've tried out in many things already.

1. SUKSIS - Unsuccessful (They kick me out before I even got a chance to go to the interview. Ugh.. Dung a**..)
2. CONVEX - I've gone thru their interview (the 1st interview in my entire life!) and I dunno wat to say.. Just have to wait for the result).
3. Interpreneur Club - This club also enacles me to gain my Unit Desa. But I don't know what to expect since I just signed in my name. Also needs to wait for the result.
4. PBSM - Already in, but it's not my first choice. So... =(

Classes... Classes... Eh...
Ah~ Fine, la.. Intro to Literature, Academic English and Spanish on Monday. Academic English again and tutorial on Tuesday, Spanish on Wednesday, Theories of whatnot (I don't remember the name of the subject.. theehee..), Report Writing and whatnot (also lost in my memories..) and Enterpreneurship Studies on Thursday... And I don't have any class on Friday.

*takes a breather*

Oh, yeah! On a lighter mood, I just HAVE to share this with you.

My boys have all grown up... They're so handsome... I sound like a mom, am I? Well, it's true. I'm so proud.. *sniff*

DBSK - Beautiful Thing

It's feel like
beautiful thing
Below the moon’s shadow
The wind whispers in my ear
Where will it take me
Making the night turn white
A spirit that walks on clouds
Till the dawn comes
Till the night goes to sleep

Time of love, Oh my life
When will be the chosen day
There is nothing in this world
That is not beautiful
For one to know everything in a lifetime
It’s too short of a trip

Though the seasons will come again
Time also passes
Life’s faint light allow
Only the memories remain
I am thankful for each day
So I put my hands together in a small prayer
Everything that is hidden in lies
May I love please

That's that, people..
=)

Confusion

University is a confusing place
You could get lost in it...
(especially for Semester 1, Year 1 students)

Excuse Me

by powerangers_08@yahoo.com

It's been... seriously and extremely hectic these last 7 days of the week. Long traveling period, tiring registration day and all... It's been... Well, tiring... (+_+)

And I'm sorry for neglecting this blog for so long. It's not because of lack of idea, and it's not because I don't have the mood to update, but as I said; it's been very, very busy for me. All these new environments make me feels a little bit intimidate of it. Everyone else seems so sure, so certain. But me, I'm still hanging to be honest. Self-confidence seems to have left me far behind.

But duh... it's me who have to keep up the pace, isn't it? So, please wish me all the best. I'll try my hardest (^_^)

Well then this is a poem I wrote a week ago. There's no story for you. I'm sorry. I have one, but ideas are not on my side this time. But I'll finish it for sure! ^^

Excuse me
If I'm at wrong
There might be things
That I've said
That I've done
Has you upset somehow
Your brows are wrinkled
You're seizing me up
Your eyes are on mine
Words fail you
So that's what you do
Your face has a big 'why?'
I've thorn you apart, haven't I?
So excuse me
Forgive me
I was so wrong
Delusions agitated me
Perseverance dominated me
Makes me forget you
Ignores you
I was weak
Desires overwhelmed me
Greed lost me
But I am human
Mistakes are my nature
So excuse me
Forgive my wrongs
Accept me as I am
Coz
That's all that I am to you
That's all that I am to all others

And that's that!
xD

Girl...

by farah_prong@yahoo.com.my

Hiyaa!!!

This is a poem I've written quite some times ago. Hope you'll like it....(nervous)

The smiling girl

The smiling girl that he sees

The morning girl

The girl that has twinkles in her eyes

The girl that shines everyone with her smiles

That girl

The girl with spring in her steps

The girl with summer in her eyes

The girl with the sweetest smile

…is his girl

She walks with grace

A beautiful girl

She smiles with ease

A cute girl

He sees her daily

But he is afraid

Afraid to make his move

Afraid of rejection

That day

That fateful day

He willed himself strong

He called upon the strength inside

The smiling girl

He sees her

…a step forward

…a future is in hold

That girl

The girl with summer in her eyes

Is smiling with love

With a great guy in her arm,

She is smiling at the world

That's it for now...

See you when we'll see you..

Take care.