Stars

by powerangers_08@yahoo.com

Another chapter of my life has already gone and there's no way in heaven or hell that I can repeat it back. No matter how much I want to. The desire actually cause great pains in my chest and I dont know how to endure it. There were even times that I thought that all this are just a long and wonderful dreams. That maybe I just woke up from it. I think maybe it's the pain that made me reject the fact that all this are real and it has passed and I have to move on. This isn't The Curious Case of Benjamin Button where everything is set backwards and to be honest, I don't want it to be that way. Just think, though it had ended, it IS one of the best moment in my life. Okay, I think some senses has already kicked in my system.

Although,

Its funny how I kept on remembering all the littlest thing about the many things that we used to do before. I even miss the empty talk we'll get ourselves into whenever there was time. In between classes or even during the classes, at the hostel where we're lolling ourselves to sleep eventhough its 11 oclock in the morning, when we're having lunch together; sitting in circle and exchange some lauk between us, and even during a bath. I even miss the fights and assignments, for God sake! And the pranks, the maddening laughters.

I really, really miss all that.

Now I no longer have anything to look forward to. Usually when the term is about to start, there was this kind of expectation that I was accustomed to. What's new, what's up... Any kind to question that will start our 12 hours long conversation. Or I should say, empty talk. Another moment of sleepy-lolling. And most of all the food we each promised each other to bring. You'd think there was some kind of kenduri going on!

But no longer all of those...

It has passed and we have to move on. As long as we're breathing, time will furiously leave us. It's okay to live up the past, but never live in the past. It's not healthy, folks! So then, I would want to wish everyone a very good luck. May all your dreams, you'd be able to achieve all of them no matter what. Lets be a successful someone, ok?

All rightie! This is another one of my creative writing. It's intended to someone far away whose heart I can no longer reach.

Enjoy!

Look

There’s a star we see

It’s as far as eyes can see

Over where it is the east

It’s bright like a sun’s lightest kiss

Yes

You’re the star I like to see

You were far that I can’t see

In eventual we’d end up like this

Oblivious to the signs that I don’t miss

Look

There’s a star on the sky of gloom

Unreachable even when the earth spun

It’s clear though constantly gone

Overshadowed when the eye of the heaven shines

Yes

You’re the star when the night blooms

You’re unreachable even since this all begun

You’re there and constantly gone

Foreshadowed the ‘we’ should never have become

Hence

Stay there

Go nowhere

Never be here

Cause that’s all that you are

My star from afar

Sorry, It's simple and it sounds a bit stupid if I'm to be honest with myself. Huhu! Ah, well...
Btw, please forgive my late comeback. So many has happened for such a short while.. I have issues in keeping up with reality, what with the separation and stuffs. Sori ek, Farah...
=J


Well, that's that, folks!
xD

Is It Really Over?

by farah_prong@yahoo.com.my

Hiyaa!!

It has been a long time since I wrote something in the blog. I just got back from the college. It is not even one week but I felt strangely lonely. It is like there is a hole in my heart. Some hole that makes me sick. (Well, actually, I am sick now but that's not the point). I am so lonely. I missed all of you. Well, A'an, if you dropped out or missing from the face of earth, I will find you high and low. You are not forgotten. It is just that sometimes, time move at a slow pace and everyone follows it. Thus, we lost track and you just assume that you are missing and abandoned. huhu...

I missed all of you guys. I hope that you all misses me as well. I am scared of one thing. I am scared that all this 'I miss you' will finally stop and we will eventually forget each other and move on. I am scared of this possibility. It had happened so many times before; the forgetting and moving on thing. It had happened during all the camps, secondary school, PLKN and others. I don't want that to happen. I mean, we actually spent three years of loving, caring and nurturing our friendship and I do not want it to be easily forgotten. I mean, there is a saying that says:

It takes one second to like someone,

One minute to know them,

An hour to love them,

but

It takes FOREVER to forget.

I think it goes like that. I stand to be corrected people. Thus, all of you are precious jewel in my life. I don't want to forget all of you. I want us to stay in contact although my mind says that it is a naive thought. At least, stay contacting each other online. Post a message or twos. Drop by and says hi. That is the least that you can do. We have been through all. The laughters, tears, bitterness, resentment, the love and care; we have been through all. It must count for something right?

Thus, here I am to ask you all...IS IT REALLY OVER?

Life: Deprived

by powerangers_08@yahoo.com

All right! I'm at the college rite now! and things are a little slow at the moment. Mainly since there are no other known person around (except a few). Driving could no longer give me the solace that I used to experience so there are now the Final Report or there are none. So I'd better pick the Final Report or I'll die of boredom.

What a life...

Currently I am always wondering. What is a life suppose to be?

Me, I don't think I have a life. Not just of before, anyway. Before (during the break after the Industrial Training) all I did was wake up, did some house works, watch some TV, and I think that's it (omit the eat, sleep, bath, etc.. and don't count the assignments...). So, is that a life? If it is, then... I dunno... But if it isn't, then what does it takes to have it? Is it fun? Is it the fulfill-ness? Or is it the intention? Coz I think I'm missing so much here.

I wonder what will happen if I'd gone missing? Nobody would notice would they? So I think I'll be fine if I end up some place else. It might do good for everybody. Hahaha

I think I might have gone crazy without me knowing...

I wonder what the future holds for me. How would things be in a year after this for me? A few years? 15 years? Will I be OK? Or will I be a loser? Losing even before my real life even starts.

But I guess that's for me to decide, is it not?
=)

I think I'm depressed...
ekekeke



BTW,

I love the way the guy is holding the girl. I think it's sweet, don't you?
xD



Hm...
Well, that's that I guess.
xD

MIA report!!!

by farah_prong@yahoo.com.my

Hiyaa!!!

OMG! Miss Ayu just called me and said that my report that I have posted via pos laju haven't reached the college yet! Nervousness started to eat me from inside. I am SCARED! What will happen if the report never arrived? I paid RM 9.45 for nothing man! NOTHING! My horrible baby is MIA!

WARGH!!!!

So I paid a visit to the Pos Besar Alor Setar, and they told me to go here and there and I even went inside the 'authorized personnel only' section. Thank God that all the workers are really nice, therefore, I didn't get scold. The relief settles in when the workers told me that the parcel has arrived on 29th and signed by Faradila. Is she our lecturer? Faradila? Who is she? Why did she keep my report when I have already stated to whom should the parce be with. I write Miss Ayu's name is CAPITAL LETTER for god sake! Why she didn't give it to Miss Ayu?

I tols Miss Ayu that the parcel has arrived and signed by Faradila and she said she will check it. But still, I have to re-print my horrible baby and bring it to college. What is the point of sending it early when it didn't even reach the intended person?

Huhu....

Please pray that Miss Faradila did have my report and by chance, she had FORGOTTEN to give it to Miss Ayu. Please pray that my horibble baby and my jurnal is already there in the college or I will lose it!

okay then folks...

See you when we'll see you!